To trust or not to Trust?

'Trust' indicates a depth and a sense of assurance that is based on strong but not logically-conclusive evidence, or based on the character, ability, or truth shown by someone or something over time or across situations. Trust makes for a sense of being safe or of being free of fear, enough so your focus can be on other matters because that matter is taken care of. It becomes easier to simply enjoy life. Trust breeds confidence and conviction.

No human is totally trustworthy.
No human is totally untrustworthy.
No human can always trust themselves.
No human is totally trusting of any one other person.

Trust is a risk. We leave ourselves open for loss. Betrayal of trust hurts so much because the lost sense of security multiplies the damage.

Unless You’ve lived my life or been inside my mind and read my thoughts; Do not judge me because you dont know me and you don’t no who i am. I know I’ve made mistakes and i know I’ve hurt people who matter to me.  It sucks the way some things turn out but, my time here is to short to live life with regrets and dwell on things that could have been. Things change, people leave and time doesn’t stop for anyone. So learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow. Forgive but don’t forget the people who have done you wrong, because you never know who you are going to need when life gets harder than it already is. I know what i want in life but I don’t no all the decisions i make are the right ones. I do know that whatever is meant to be will all work out in the end and if its not then it wont. So trust your gut and never look back. Everything will happen for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things so wrong so you can appreciate them when they are right. You believe lies so you learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together, just keep looking forward.

For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

I am Broken

Always trying to survive.

I sometimes pray for my own life.

Why is it always me that you lie.

I am fragmented

Pieces falling apart.

Wondering..

How it got this far.

I feel the pain.

Although, it is in vain.

Constantly living in my own shame.

But, only I am to blame. 

I only fear, fear itself. 

Taking challenges in my stride. 

I am my own darkness, only dreams of light.

I'l push you as far away as I can.

I don't know what trust is anymore.

We'll be sailing oceans apart.

Soldier on the front line,

Yet I feel so deeply, I am affected.

But, You'd never know.

I may shed glimmers of insight..

But walk in my shoes, and you may just not want to know anymore.

Run for the hills, where you can be safe.

I can't be handled while i'm flirting with dreams, passions, and ambitions.

I'm lifes ultimate chaser..

Only I can know who I am and where i'm going.

Only I try to leave myself behind, try to blind my nightmares.

Only I can know my own strength and growth through the blurr. 

Only I know my contentment and capability... 

Trust in oneself and you may find, all those things you need to define,

Life is no black and white. 

jce.