Sucks that the best lyrics, stories and creative ideas have come from my deepest sadness'. 

So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. 

* Christopher McCandle

3 years ago.. My life changed forever. I do not even think I have ever

recovered. The thought of you gone .. my heart stops beating.

Each year its supposed to get easier. 

Each day is supposed to heal.. 

They lied.

I could cry for you forever.

I miss you Billie

Every day I pray for you.

You are my Angel now..

Lock my dreams for safe keeping...

We can sit in silence, I know that’s what you love. I’ll learn to appreciate
The beauty from a laugh. And I can share my secrets, I’ve only sung before. You can choose to stand by me. Or simply to ignore.

So I won’t let that happen. While we both belong,
I can be the singer, You can be the song

I’ll be waiting for you here. When you come calling
I’ll be waiting........

I thought I knew you, but I guess it’s easier to see what we want than to look for the truth

"I think that’s what’s wrong with the world; no one says what they really feel, they always hold it inside. They’re sad, but they don’t cry. They’re happy, bu they don’t dance or sing. They’re angry, but they don’t scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed and that’s the worst feeling in the world. So everyone walks with their heads down and no one sees how beautiful the sky is."

- Unknown

When I come to the end of the road 


And the sun has set for me,


I want no rites in a gloom-filled room. 


Why cry for a soul set free?


Miss me a little–but not too long 


And not with your head bowed low.


Remember the love that we once shared, 


Miss me–but let me go.


For this is a journey that we all must take 


And each must go alone. 


It's all a part of the Master's plan, 


A step on the road to home.


When you are lonely and sick of heart 


Go to the friends we know 


And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds. 


Miss Me–But Let me Go...

Hello, good morning, how ya do? 

What makes your rising sun so new? 

I could use a fresh beginning too 

All of my regrets are nothing new

So this is the way 

that I say that I need You 

This is the way 

This is the way

That I’m learning to breathe 

I’m learning to crawl 

I’m finding that You and 

You alone can break my fall 

I’m living again, awake and alive 

I’m dying to breathe in these abundant skies

Hello, good morning, how ya been? 

Yesterday left my head kicked in 

I never thought I could fall like that 

Never knew that I could hurt this bad

I’m learning to breathe 

I’m learning to crawl 

I’m finding that You and 

You alone can break my fall 

I’m living again, awake and alive 

I’m dying to breathe in these abundant skies

So this is the way 

that I say that I need You 

This is the way 

That I say I love You 

This is the way 

That I say I’m Yours 

This is the way 

This is the way

Moment for life

I fly with the stars in the skies, 

I am no longer trying to survive, 

I believe that life is a prize, 

But to live doesn't mean you're alive. 

Don't worry bout me, and who I fire 

I get what I desire, it's my empire 

And yes I call the shots, I am the umpire 

I sprinkle holy water, upon the vampire (vampire) 

In this very moment I'm king, 

In this very moment I slay, Goliath with a sling, 

This very moment I bring 

Put it on everything, that I will retire with the ring, 

And I will retire with the crown, Yes! 

No I'm not lucky I'm blessed, Yes! 

Clap for the heavyweight champ, Me! 

But I couldn't do it all alone, We! 

Young Money raised me, grew up out in Baisley 

Southside Jamaica, Queens and it's crazy 

cause I'm still hood, Hollywood couldn't change me 

shout out to my haters, sorry that you couldn't phase me 

ain't being cocky we just vindicated, best believe that when we done 

This moment will be syndicated, I don't know, this night just reminds me of 

everything that they deprived me of, 

pppp, put ya drinks up, it's a celebration every time we link up 

We done did everything they can think of 

Greatness is what we on the brink of. 

[Chorus] 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive 

[Drake] 

Yeah 

Yeah 

Yeah, ugh 

What I tell 'em hoes bow bow bow to me, drop down to ya knees 

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Young Money the Mafia that's word to Lil Cease 

I'm in The Dominican Big Papi Ortiz 

doin' target practice all these bitches just aiming to please 

shout out to the CEO 500 degrees 

shout out to the OVO where we set for T's, awww 

N*ggas wanna be friends how coincidental 

This supposed to be ya'll year we ain't get the memo 

Young King, pay me in gold 

40 got a bunch of weed he ain't even roll 

These n*ggas be droppin' songs they ain't even cold 

Weezy on top and that n*gga ain't even home, yet! 

yeah, be very afraid these other rappers getting bodied and carried away 

f-ck it me and Nicki Nick gettin' married today 

And now you bitches that be hatin can catch a bouquet, ouww 

yeah, you a star in my eyes, you and all them white girls party of five 

are we drinking a lil more I can hardly decide 

I can't believe we really made it I'm partly surprised, I swear 

d*mn, this one for the books, man! 

I swear this shit is as fun as it looks, man! 

I'm really tryna make it more than what it is, cuz everybody dies but not everybody lives! 

[Chorus] 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive 

[Nick Minaj] 

This is my moment, I waited all my life I can tell its time 

drifting away I'm one with the sunsets, I have become alive. 

[Chorus] 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive 

I wish that I could have this moment for life, for life, for life 

Cuz in this moment I just feel so alive, alive, alive

Believe In Yourself

Believe forever, and always believe,

That you are a winner

and that's what you'll be!

Always believe that your dreams

will come true,

If you believe in just one person,

Just believe in YOU!.

Believe that you can do it 
just climb to the top, 
  Keep right on believing, 
and never once stop. 
  Believe you are perfect just as you now are, 
  With courage and faith you can go very far.

Others will plant seeds of doubt, 
and try to make you fall, 
  Keep right on believing that you will 
someday have it all. 
  Don't let their gossip cripple the faith 
you own within, 
  Know that you have the character 
and integrity to win.

Draw strength from deep within 
and don't question yourself, 
  Don't look for a wolf in sheep's clothing 
when you need help. 
  You can depend on yourself through 
the darkest of nights, 
  Through perseverance and courage..... 
you'll win every fight.

we never lose the people we love, even to death. They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make. Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories. We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love. - Mr smith you enriched the lives of many people ..forever leaving a legacy on this earth


Forever may you rest in peace Mr Smith.

Stop searching for fame. Know your passion & live it out. Perfect your craft. Stay true to yourself & the rest will follow.

if you only knew what i felt for you, 

you would've held on tighter, fought a little harder, 

been a little smarter & now you're gonna miss my love. one day soon you'll see, you'll reach out for me, boy you had a keeper,

but YOU didn't know how to treat her 

YOU should've felt a little deeper.

Side by side, hand in hand, battle lines, drawn in the sand. With painted faces we take our places, we are marching to war. A crimson moon watches in pride as you and I fall in stride by stride, your eyes so strong, and your lips so fine, my greatest dream is to make you mine.

Brought to life by just your smile I try to show you that I care. All the while the world moves onward, unaware. I dream of you, to hold you tight, to watch you smile through the night. When life seemed hopeless a spark appeared, with snow white hair and a heart that cared.

 As I take you by the hand, promise that with me you’ll stand, while we march to war. 

I challenge you dear, our war lies at heart

For I need you so close, but we’re better apart

And our spectators cry, they do not understand

We walk this alone, longing to be hand in hand.

At heart I have always been a coper. 

I've mostly been able to walk around with my wounds mostly hidden.

and I've always stored up my deep depressive episode for the weeks off,

when there was time to have an abbreviated version of a complete breakdown. 

But in the end, I'd be able to get up and on with it.

I could always do what little must be done to scratch by.

I'm still waiting, for that time
the time they all talk about that heals. 
When does it actually come?
When did I start hearing all these voices
that told me to run from all the madness.


My world is spinning too fast. 
I though this was what I wanted. 
I really did this, this was what I wanted.
But, I don't know when I lost my mind. 


I wonder if it would be different if  I had you. 
But I dont think I could build my world around you. 
When is the right time ? 
That never seems to come either. 


I find the strength to keep trying, 
only because it all seemed too much a long time ago,
but it didn't stop me.
I run from the thought of needing you too much. 
My dreams were my salvation..

Head down as I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground

Eyes shut I find myself in love racing the Earth

And I soaked in your love

And love is right in my path in my grasp

And me and you belong

Ears closed what I hear no one else has to know

Cause' I know that what we have is worth first place in gold

And I soaked in your love

And love is right in my path in my grasp

And me and you belong

There once
Was a little
Girl..
Who never knew
LOVE
Until a boy
Broke her
HEART.

Love hurts..
Jealousy hurts more!

To trust or not to Trust?

'Trust' indicates a depth and a sense of assurance that is based on strong but not logically-conclusive evidence, or based on the character, ability, or truth shown by someone or something over time or across situations. Trust makes for a sense of being safe or of being free of fear, enough so your focus can be on other matters because that matter is taken care of. It becomes easier to simply enjoy life. Trust breeds confidence and conviction.

No human is totally trustworthy.
No human is totally untrustworthy.
No human can always trust themselves.
No human is totally trusting of any one other person.

Trust is a risk. We leave ourselves open for loss. Betrayal of trust hurts so much because the lost sense of security multiplies the damage.

Unless You’ve lived my life or been inside my mind and read my thoughts; Do not judge me because you dont know me and you don’t no who i am. I know I’ve made mistakes and i know I’ve hurt people who matter to me.  It sucks the way some things turn out but, my time here is to short to live life with regrets and dwell on things that could have been. Things change, people leave and time doesn’t stop for anyone. So learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow. Forgive but don’t forget the people who have done you wrong, because you never know who you are going to need when life gets harder than it already is. I know what i want in life but I don’t no all the decisions i make are the right ones. I do know that whatever is meant to be will all work out in the end and if its not then it wont. So trust your gut and never look back. Everything will happen for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things so wrong so you can appreciate them when they are right. You believe lies so you learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together, just keep looking forward.

For what it’s worth, it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit... start whenever you want... you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

I am Broken

Always trying to survive.

I sometimes pray for my own life.

Why is it always me that you lie.

I am fragmented

Pieces falling apart.

Wondering..

How it got this far.

I feel the pain.

Although, it is in vain.

Constantly living in my own shame.

But, only I am to blame. 

I only fear, fear itself. 

Taking challenges in my stride. 

I am my own darkness, only dreams of light.

I'l push you as far away as I can.

I don't know what trust is anymore.

We'll be sailing oceans apart.

Soldier on the front line,

Yet I feel so deeply, I am affected.

But, You'd never know.

I may shed glimmers of insight..

But walk in my shoes, and you may just not want to know anymore.

Run for the hills, where you can be safe.

I can't be handled while i'm flirting with dreams, passions, and ambitions.

I'm lifes ultimate chaser..

Only I can know who I am and where i'm going.

Only I try to leave myself behind, try to blind my nightmares.

Only I can know my own strength and growth through the blurr. 

Only I know my contentment and capability... 

Trust in oneself and you may find, all those things you need to define,

Life is no black and white. 

jce.